remember karma

notes from g-chat
nagibc: im all about the karma
me: me too
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i strongly believe in karma, and that shit can be a bitch. but sometimes, when you're not such an asshole, the universe actually does throw some good karma your way.

i like to think i've stocked up on some good karma. i don't cheat, steal, lie. i don't purposely do anything mean. sure i can be sarcastic, but that's different. when someone leaves their wallet behind at store 24, i run after them to hand it back. if i find anything with an address on it, i return it. if bank of america hasn't stolen all my money and i'm not in the red, i'll give the homeless dude a dollar. i'm not sure if this is because i am one of the few nice people left (not many would describe me as nice) or because i'm selfishly trying to stock up on good karma for the universe to generously dispense my way. maybe a combo of both.

in the past few months, i've had some bad luck. things went pretty downhill for a while and it got the point where i told myself that things really can't go anywhere but up.

hello, universe? yeah, hi. remember me? it's kim. remember? the girl who ran after the bitch from the volleyball team to give her back her coach's keys that she carelessly dropped by the pool? she would have gotten in so much trouble, and i fucking hate her, but i went and did it anyway. yeah so, do you think you could throw me some of that good karma? maybe? alright, well let me know.

i think the big U finally got the message 'cause things have been looking up for lil miss kim. and also, my cousin put an offer on a sick ass house yesterday, and today they accepted her offer. i can't help but feel somewhat responsible for this. i mean, i'm pretty sure my good karma is overflowing to those around me.

is it sad that while these good things are happening, i am secretly nervous that it's a sign something really bad will happen? such a cynic...